I get easily influenced by people and customers behaviour so match their style but it’s not really me. And my real self is so excitable so I have to be a plain boring person so not to have to pretend to he a different person.  I get addicted to trends and ways of live and chase it, TV movies, chilling so I always have to find balance to stop myself moving too get away from myself but I have to keep them around to remind me of who I was and the things I like like doing. I’m sure I used to write stuff like this in my diary when I was really young to remember not to stray away from myself but as times goes on their is so much more responsibility and things to take care of that you have to try and keep up with the tends. But that’s tiring. So you forgot to have things that remind you who you were.