I need to ensure that I make time to be on my own, to do my own things without being interrupted. Before having a family I would do this whenever I wanted, but now I have to plan this time in, And there is nothing wrong with it being during the day. I have commitments at night with my family, my children, and I need sleep in the evenings so I can’t exactly stay awake all night doing my own things like I have been doing. It’s not healthy, I’m losing out on much needed sleep. So I must take some time out of my work week, which I can of course do seen as I work for myself, set my own hours and can basically do what I want. But I don’t, I feel guilty. But I need to start doing it. There is nothing wrong with having Wednesday afternoon for playing 2 hours of video games, or watching a movie to escape from reality.

But then i don’t want to sleep. It’s not like I feel like I’m missing on out anything in particular, it’s more that there are so many things I want to do but there isn’t enough time to do them so I end up paralysed and just zone out watching doing nothing but thinking about all the things I want to do. I need to start doing things with my evening that I enjoy, that I want to do. I’ve worked hard all day and week so I can allow myself to have fun and enjoy life.