thoughts
I have this incredible urge to get back to zero….
I have this incredible urge to get back to zero. Back to a childlike feeling where I had nothing, no responsibilities or commitments and I could...
Supermarket staff are just lazy fuckers…
I find it funny, close to hilarious that whenever you ask a worker to check it someone it is the back as the shelves are empty, their instant...
When am I going to start…
When am I going to start spending more time focusing on my family duties rather than trying to hide away from them with work or my own activities.
I need to make space and time for myself…
I need to ensure that I make time to be on my own, to do my own things without being interrupted. Before having a family I would do this whenever I...
I think I’ve always known…
I think I've always known that I can't have any balance in my life. On one hand, all I want to do is fuck all, literally nothing, if I could, I...
If i could just do nothing all day long I would
I want to live like the people Ben Fogle meets.
Feeling you got as a kid…
Feeling you got as a kid when you left your parents or friends and were like I have to get back, can’t go too far. Kind of get that now as an adult.
I feel like Buddha…. but not in a good way…
I feel like Buddha where I have no attachment to things to give me peace but I miss getting so involved in things that if they didn’t go my way I’d...
I feel so guilty that I’ve created such an easy life for myself that I can’t enjoy it…
Great at being a business owner, crap at being a friend. I don’t have energy to as I have to venture into the world where I feel everyone’s energy....
I’m scared to get close to my children in case I let them down or lose them
I avoid being happy and confident…
I avoid being happy and confident so I can avoid having to be the man everyone wants and deal with having to handle that lifestyle. I attract lots...
As we get older…
0-25 years are the best and happiest, it’s fun, it’s drinking with your buddies, it’s Star Wars, prom, dating and enjoying life. 25-45 years are...
Negative or positive thoughts: both manifest…
Maybe my problem is I get stuck or used to get stuck on the negative thoughts? I got stuck on them that much I manifested drama or problems in my...
I always used to fly off the handle…
I always used to fly off the handle but now I don’t so much. I do when my mental health is going backwards, so it’s a clear sign that I’ve got self...
I’m afraid to feel all the feelings I ran away from…
I’m afraid to feel all the feelings I ran away from as a kid through my own children. I didn’t handle them well and worry they will paralyse me or...
I have to switch off my connection to people…
I have to switch off my connection to people after interactions even friends. It’s like I have to gain complete freedom or disconnection from...
Pretty sure I’m a functional depressive…
Pretty sure I’m a functional depressive - discuss.
My addictive personality means…
My addictive personality means that the things I love I become addicted to and not all of them are good for me. Drinking is bad drugs are bad,...
Everything to the excess, no half measures
I’m scared to meditate incase I get addicted to switching off and don’t or won’t come back
It’s tiring having to hide the person I was…
I’ve realised who I used to be and have tried to repress and hide for years as it leads to isolation and desperation so I’ve tried and have become a...
I used have different kinds of relationships with people…
I used have different kinds of relationships with people, some fun, some knowledge, some joking, sexual but then I’d have to keep up the act I’d...
I was really outgoing and wanted to learn and grow and meet people…
I was really outgoing and wanted to learn and grow and meet people. Now after hurt, betrayal and loss, my heart shield or my aura has gone, like a...
I get easily influenced by people…
I get easily influenced by people and customers behaviour so match their style but it’s not really me. And my real self is so excitable so I have to...
Everybody looks okay….. don’t they?
"Lately, I've noticed that everybody looks okay until you eventually have a deep conversation with them. And then, you'll realise that this is a sad...
Larger shandy – the right way!
Now recently I've been drinking shandy when I've gone to a pub or restaurant. Usually the bar staff will do 1 of 2 things. They will either pour...
We have blast off
1.55am and after many months, if not years of trying to figure out the name and feel of this site it is finally ready to go. Don't get too excited...