I feel like Buddha where I have no attachment to things to give me peace but I miss getting so involved in things that if they didn’t go my way I’d feel real disappointment or pain that I now don’t want to get attached to things that risk anything so I don’t feel hurt, but I want to feel good things again.

I felt everything so deeply growing up that I’ve lost all my energy to feel things so I don’t really feel things anymore but reason myself it’s okay because Buddha says attachment is the cause of all pain – 2 conflicting ideology’s!