Maybe my problem is I get stuck or used to get stuck on the negative thoughts? I got stuck on them that much I manifested drama or problems in my life. I focused on the bad things, manifested more and got stuck in a negative cycle: I’ve tuned my life around now by focussing on the positive but I have this feeling of guilt or feeling that I don’t belong in the good world, or “the light” so I end up fucking things up or starting to so I gradually end up back in my old world. Can’t do it rapidly, so I do it slowly and people go with it.